I will forgive (not forget or regret)
I’m not gonna lie—2015 was hard for me. I lost my dad on October 1st and besides the obvious sadness, it brought up all kinds of emotions for me.
Flying to South Africa three times in 13 months also put me out of whack: out of my routine; out of my exercise routine; out of my food routine.
I started to fall back to my old habits and have been self-medicating with food and wine. And it’s time to stop.
I feel like I’ve been on a roller coaster since my book was released in January and then I was on CNN in February. I started questioning why I do what I do and just feeling completely burnt out. Somehow I lost my direction and stopped following my passion (hello—my blog is called Orna“Bakes”!) and got on the marketing/promotion/social media train.
I hate social media.
I think it brings out the worst in all of us. It’s all about instant gratification and comparison and looking to others for approval. Everything I’ve spent my life trying to get away from.
Why am I telling you all this?
Because as always my goal is to be the best me that I can be and to help anyone along the way who is experiencing the same kind of pain.
I’m excited to bring in the new year and get a fresh start. I will forgive myself for not living my best life and I will be compassionate, because when you go through a major life change or lose someone dear to you it’s bound to affect you profoundly.
What about you? Can you forgive yourself? Are you ready for a fresh start?
I’m sending my warmest and most sincere wishes your way for a happy, healthy, kind, and compassionate new year.